My Christian upbringing has been a big struggle for me on this path and trying to meld it all together in my head. Since this wonderful thing happened to me yesterday, I don't know it's weird, even hard to say exactly what it is, but I do know that the Goddess is real and She knows what is best for me.
That was something I wasn't too sure about being that a "male deity" was the only thing I have known, it was hard for me to wrap my brain around a female one. But it's like.........She sang out her song to me and I heard her loud and clear. I don't care what "name" she has or from which origin she comes from, all I care is that she is out there and that she cares about me. I want nothing more than to honor her with the blessings she has given me.
I don't feel the struggle that I felt anymore. I am ready to take it all in and just let it flow.
I'm not saying that the God isn't important too...maybe to put it like this. He stepped aside so the Goddess could step to me and help me to see. I don't know that this is even making sense. Thought it would be easy to explain but it isn't, really hard actually. lol.
I'm listening to music as I type as I always do. A friend of mine had exchanged external hard drives and she had a lot of Pagan music on hers and I have really come to love this music. My daughter will come home and find it playing a lot of time and say "Mom, not the Pagan music again." She's 21 and only listens to pop music so she doesn't get it. LOL. Well the first song that came on was one that just said it all for me. The words are not a lot but it is how I feel right now.
From The Goddess